This is something I’ve come to realize. When everything is wonderful, it’s the greatest feeling in the world. This is when you float in a state of bliss which, of course, is a great feeling. There is nothing to learn here because there’s no improvement needed or wanted. This is what every human being desires. But when things are not so good, in those darkest hours of the night when sleep won’t come and you are left with your thoughts…..that is the gut check. That is when you need to pay attention because the often painful self-reflection comes and the lessons reveal themselves. Do not turn away from these moments where there is much to be learned.
I have some of the greatest friends in the world. Some I have known virtually all my life and we are still connected. Others I have collected in my twenty two moves throughout the United States. Still others, I have come to know in different countries via various groups and/or artistic endeavors. Each friend has meaning in my life and I am thankful for all of them. But those who know my deepest thoughts without my even expressing them, those who automatically know where I would stand on certain issues, those who don’t have to ask to know my answers, those are the ones I hold most dear.
Funny how no one wants to admit their age, but everyone is talking about aging! In general, I think we see ourselves as “younger” at an age where we would have thought our parents to be old. I wonder, did they feel that way too, when comparing themselves to their parents? Perhaps we are living a fantasy, in total denial about our aging bodies and minds. Or perhaps, because we know more about healthy lifestyle, we are taking better care of ourselves and, therefore, ARE actually in a younger state than our parents were. I choose to believe the latter and I also choose to be proactive in keeping myself healthy and active; mind, body and spirit.
What do YOU have to say about aging?
Last week in my Art Journaling class, we experimented with transparent paints and also adding glazing liquid to opaque paints to make them transparent. I do love how adding many layers of sheer color creates such depth in a painting. It seems the favorite paint of the day was quinacridone nickel azo gold. Something I use a lot of, and perhaps take for granted, became a new treasure in my students’ paint box. Hooray for new discoveries!
I love this quote by Anais Nin, which prompted the journal spread. My own words are hidden beneath the layers with these words of Anais written on top:
“My mission, should I choose to accept it, is to find peace with exactly who and what I am. To take pride in my thoughts, my appearance, my talents, my flaws, and to stop the incessant worrying that I can’t be loved as I am.”
Oh, thank goodness, just drawing today. No time for painting. Quickly done in an old recycled (repurposed? reused?) Pitman’s Shorthand book from 1916. Those were simpler times, with no computers to sit in front of and while away the hours. No Google. No Facebook. What did people do with all that time? I’ll ask my….oh wait….1916? My parents weren’t even born yet. Guess I’ll have to Google it.
I wasn’t happy with the Day 5 – White/High Key entry, so I decided to repurpose it into a Day 14 entry. I imported it into Procreate on my iPad and made some changes digitally. I am just beginning to learn the features of this app, but it has so much potential. I can tell you that the word of the day is “practice” and I definitely need more of it. But I had a good time playing and hope to do more of this soon, perhaps even on this particular portrait. One thing I’ve learned is that once you post something, you see all the flaws.